Sparkling Starlight *

Sometimes I want to yell at anybody that i am totally exhausted
and have anyone who truly understands my hardships
- such a selfishness, only asking others to pay attention to me,
and such a weakness, only trying to rely on others.

At the same time,
I always want to hide the whole inner turbulence that i'm going through.
(perhaps because of my so-called p-r-i-d-e: trying to be shown as stronger than I really am)

People experiences hundreds pairs of contradictory natures simultaneously
- love and hate, joy and sorrow, affection and anger, etc.
And right now I am in the middle of the experience 
- strengh v. weakness, or reliance v. independence.

Human being is such an ironic creature,
and so am I.